Posted by Cherie on October 30, 1999 at 22:52:06:
I have had this eating disorder for almost a year now and desperately want to shake it off, but can't.
I will chew up food and spit it out. I don't know why I do this, but it is a constant thing I can't stop. I do this to foods I would not dare eat before such as cake, cookies, ice cream, donuts, and really fattening and unhealthy stuff. My mind is set that if i don't swallow it, then I am not taking in any calories or fat. But I am...I have gained like ten pounds and am just miserable. I wish I could stop and take control of my eating...now it just seems impossible shake it off. Whenever I am craving something, I do this without thinking twice. I need help, what can I do to shake this off> I don't even know why I do it, out of boredom--who knows. Please just help me and fast, I am so miserable right now--all I can think about is how to get rid of it, but then I just go and do it again. What's wrong with me--I was never like this....I think I am obsessed with food, that's all I ever think about.
please help me, I am desperate....this may not seem like a big deal, but believe me---it is. This sounds so crazy but you are the only one who knows and if i could just change and get back on the right track, I could get on with my life.