I Hate My Self - Heather's Story
My name is Heather. I suffer from depression. I find that people don't understand depression as a disease. It runs in my family. My Dad committed suicide when I was nine. BAM! The thing is I didn’t meet him until I was 7. We share the same birthday: December 28. I had a father for 2 years of my life. The other thing is I carry all the depressive genes he had. I never knew how could commit suicide when he had two girls.
"I felt like committing suicide because of....ah...well... LOTS of things...they all struck me at the same time... It was a bit hard to face... my marks... my performance in class, my fading friends, a broken heart, temporary loss of my big brother....they all kept really bothering me... but now, I realize that suicides are simply the STUPIDEST thing... I mean there's always a way out... or you have to make your way... just like I did... what really kept me going was a GREAT Inspiring thought- "THIS TOO WILL PASS"...it was my savior... but hey... I have to say it, I thought of doing the suicide...( I ONLY THOUGHT!!) but I'm sure that I would NEVER commit a suicide at that time... I only thought.... if I had done it, I WOULD HAVE MISSED EVERYTHING & EVERYONE."
This is a short life event which one of a teen of our target audience shared in our survey.
Merri Ellen Giesbrecht's Story
Unknowingly I was suffering from teenage depression. I remember being told that High School was supposed to be the happiest years of my life but it was one of the darkest times in my life. On the outside, I was named Athlete of the Year and Student of the Year a couple of times but I sure didn’t feel like it inside.
I remember thinking seriously about suicide. I’m sure that would have been a shock to everyone if I had actually done it. On the outside I was outgoing and knew just about everyone’s name in the school, but inside I was dying!
"I have learned a lot from your information and will try to put these things in to practice, concerning listening to my emotions because I know I have suffered from damaged emotions! Also, I do believe that we have to put into our bodies the right nutrition for right brain function, also a right attitude of life."
I didn’t go out much on weekends ‘cause I was terrified of people. During the day I was the outgoing jock and the one whom other students came to for help. But, I remember on Friday nights just terrified if someone would ask me to go out with them to a party or something. That is the nature of teenage depression.
I look back at my high school years and wish I could have enjoyed myself more. At the time high school couldn’t have gone by fast enough. To pass the time, I got involved in everything I could. Other days, I just wanted to sleep the entire day.
Some days I remember my mom asking me what was wrong. It took everything in me to fight back the tears and put on a strong image that I was okay. For some reason, I didn’t feel comfortable sharing about my fears and anxieties.
I tried to hide my teenage depression until one day a girl in her 20s was visiting our house. She was on a drama tour that came to our school. My dad was a teacher at our school so he opened our home to billet some of the actors. She and I had some great talks. She saw right through my tough act. She started asking me questions that went to the core of my heart. She tried desperately to convince me of my value. She finally went to bed at midnight after talking from 7pm.
The next morning, she woke up and looked terrible. I asked her what was wrong. She said she couldn’t sleep all night. She was worried about me and prayed for me all through the night. She said that I could have teenage depression and explained that it is a common illness that could be treated. She made me promise to go to the doctor. I was a bit surprised and said ‘yes’; secretly meaning ‘whatever’ inside. She left to return home and a few days later my mom and I were having an argument; over what I can’t remember. I saw how I hurt my mom and told her I think I needed to go to the doctor. I told her what the actor had said to me about teenage depression.
My mom picked up the phone immediately and made a doctor’s appointment. She shared with me how my aunt suffered from depression too. I couldn’t believe it. My aunt was the most hilarious person I’ve ever met. My mom saw a connection.
I went to the doctor and he asked me a series of questions which I all answered ‘yes’ to. It was clear I had depression. He put me on a treatment immediately. I couldn’t believe the improvement it made.
All this to say, if you’re a teen and you suffer from any of these symptoms, you’re not alone! Since suffering through my own teenage depression, I’ve learned that depression affects as many as one in eight teenagers. Go see your doctor and tell him the results of taking the depression test.
There is hope! You are worth it!
Merri Ellen Giesbrecht
Let us now observe few famous lifes
As we discussed earlier in the page 'Depression Myths VS. Facts' that depression is not a mental weekness. It is common among everyone, including famous or highly accomplished people.
So let us look at few of the stories of the famous personalities one by one and get inspired that how they struggled from depression.
Abraham Lincoln suffered depression during 1800’s and it is famous by the name Abraham Lincoln’s “Melancholy”. Lincoln's life begin with the lose of his many loved-ones. His mother, sister and cousin also suffered from depression. According to author and former presidential candidate George McGovern, various factors could have contributed to Lincoln’s depression including “heredity, deaths in the family, business failures, election defeats, and failed romances".
Buzz Aldrin, the man who walked on Moon documented in his biography about his struggle with Bipolar Depression and Alcoholism. Aldrin's depression and alcohol problems were inherited, he said. Aldrin's mother committed suicide in his young age. Aldrin also has a family history of alcoholism. Aldrin is now 81 and he is still making his mark on the world, speaking about his struggle with depression and alcoholism.
Charles Darwin, a famous biologist suffered from depression due to declining health and personal tragedies and various other forty years. Despite these he was a very successful biologist.
The famous "Harry Potter" Author, J.K. Rowling revealed in an interview with Adeel Amini for a student magazine at Edinburgh University that she had once been depressed in 1993 and once tried to commit suicide. Luckily the attempt was unsuccessful. Now she is known as one of the most amazing and famous novelist.
He made his film debut in the aptly titled "Rubberface" in 1981, but didn't experience box office success until a decade later with "Ace Ventura, Pet Detective". He made headlines with "The Cable Guy", receiving a record 20 million dollar paycheck. At the age of 16 he went through even more difficult times. "My family kinda hit the skids. We were experiencing poverty at that point. We all got a job, where the whole family had to work as security guards and janitors. And I just got angry," says Carrey. "I was angry at the world for doing that to my father. I wanted to bash somebody's head in, basically."
Diana, Princess of Wales was a member of the British royal family and an international personality of the late 20th century as the first wife of Charles, Prince of Wales, whom she married on 29 July 1981. The marriage produced two sons: Princes William and Harry, currently second and third in line to the thrones of the 16 Commonwealth realms, respectively.For years public believed that Diana was very happy with her married life.But the picture was different.During her lifetime,once he tried to jump from staircase and she also revealed in an interview that she also suffered from post natal depression.
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Charles John Huffam Dickens (7 February 1812 – 9 June 1870) was the most popular English novelist of the Victorian era, and he remains popular, responsible for some of English literature's most iconic characters.
Sir Isaac Newton
Sir Isaac Newton was an English physicist, mathematician, astronomer, natural philosopher, alchemist, and theologian. Newton is considered by many scholars and members of the general public to be one of the most influential people in human history.He was also followed by depression and lose in scientific skills.
Physicist, wrote popular best selling book, “A Brief History of Time,” known for his contributions to theoretical physics, cosmology, black holes.It is said that he also once went through Acute depression in period of his life.
Comedian, actor in TV show “Ellen,” movie “Finding Nemo” and star of popular talk show, “The Ellen DeGeneres Show.”She made a decision that led her life ruined and this led the commencement of depression.